Family

this house
feels like
m y skull casement
vibrating and shaking
sometimes luminous
through the art of angles
as they have been known
to share a human face.

my family
working at paying the bills,
for them
i hope that i was a gift
for at least a living second
when we could see
and sing
eye to eye
but then i know
that the only one i love
is by way of marital instruction,
not my family, no
but her, everloving, how can
I call her by her name
when just thinking about it
is more than a lifetime
meaning
Jesus fucking Christ
is my wife smart and beautiful,
I told the doctor
and well
he should have been beheaded
for not listening