they took my fucking car
after they took me.
five times the legal amount of medication
and i was put in the ER
feeling like I had been put under some horrible gun
that wasn't exactly psychiatric or medical
but maybe more like it was made of cheap steel
and supposed to help and warm
while existing as a science fiction dream
in fealty to other people's delusions of grandeur.

so i coughed up blood there
and had to talk to detectives
between gasps for breath
while being put under
as they placed some tube into my lungs.
i was terrified that i had babbled while unconscious
and said something like for instance
that I hated America
which would have been true.